I am trying to figure out the big difference between my mind this week and my mind a few weeks ago. Because, even when I was more mobile, it’s not like I was running around all over the place. I am pretty much a serious homebody, so I was here with my family. Is it possible that mere thoughts of chores to be done, and other typical daily tasks were occupying most of my mental energy? I really don’t know what I was thinking about. I do know that over the past week my thoughts have totally shifted to focus on my children. I am noticing more than I was before. Does my intense focus on them now mean I wasn’t focused enough on them before? Was I too distracted by things that I can’t even identify now?
I’ve spent the past week really thinking about each of my children and what they need from me right now in this season. Because we homeschool, a lot of my time has been devoted to planning for that. We homeschool year round, so we aren’t experiencing the big first week back like many others are, but I do typically make some changes to our plans and introduce new materials in September. So that’s what I’ve been doing. I’ve been studying new programs that I want to start and making new checklists for my children to follow. We’ve gotten away from lists of any sort over the past months and I’ve noticed that doesn’t work for all of my children. One thing I’ve realized is that we all need a little more accountability, and finally I find myself with ample time to provide that. So this is good, this quiet time before the transition that will come when our new baby joins us. It’s just what I need, and I recognize that now. If I’m honest, I feel pretty thankful right now for this time of mental clearing that I’ve been given, and this window before everything shifts again.
p.s. In case it’s not obvious…that’s Beatrix’s antenna attached to her head with black tape. I didn’t ask for any further explanation. Sometimes it’s best to just nod and smile.
Also, the boys are making sure I don’t miss anything good. For instance, they bring me snakes in bed. Green snakes are my favorite.