We had a lovely, peaceful snowstorm over the weekend. No high winds or power outages, just lots of snow. Most of the kids have been in and out all day ever since and the drying rack is covered in damp coats and snow pants. I have all the snow time I need each morning when I head out to take care of my animals. Jonny’s been helping me the past couple of days because trudging through snow makes everything take a little bit longer. The goats are better at braving the snow than the chickens, though none of them care for it.
I’ve been in a somewhat depressed and contemplative state for a couple of months now. I have also been a bit unwell. Nothing major, just feeling off and more tired than usual, which is part of having Hashimoto’s hypothyroidism. I hesitate to mention it, but I bet some of you are in a similar place. This time of year has a tendency to do this to me. I’m re-evaluating my health situation and looking for areas where change is warranted (mainly diet and exercise). I have the most energy in the early part of the day, and I try to direct that towards homeschooling. I got off track with homeschooling last fall when Jonny left his job. I poured most of my energy in the months that followed into my own work, feeling that was most urgent and necessary at the time. Working also made me feel like I had some control over the situation, so that is how I channeled my anxiety. Now I am trying to recover some balance, and figure out how to homeschool and homemake while working in the margins. I realize that absolute balance isn’t really possible, but at the very least I am getting my priorities in order. Jonny is working part time (from home-we moved his office to my basement studio space), and I am hoping that shifts to full time work in the next month or so.
I did something new to me and bought a goal planner, and I am excited to put that to use this year. Reading through it has challenged me to examine myself and my goals in new ways. Honestly, I wasn’t very aware of my goals previously. I seem to always be chasing the next thing, rather than setting goals and working towards them in an intentional way. I do hope that I am able to really devote time to this in the coming months. It seems every day has a new list of to-dos, and only so much energy to go around. I suspect I will start to feel better as the days lengthen, as I usually do, so I am allowing myself to slowly ease into this new sort of planning.
Seth bought a little pickup truck last week with money he has been saving for the right opportunity, and I started working on the counselor recommendation letter for his college application today. After much deliberation, his plan is to go to school locally for at least the first two years and live at home to save money, so we won’t be saying any goodbyes this year, but it’s still hard to believe that we are already at this place. I was only a few years older than Seth is now when he was born, in college myself, and it’s hard to believe that more than eighteen years have passed. I’m excited for him, and for my other two big boys who aren’t far behind. But, I’m also a bit sad over how the time has flown by. It does help me in my desire to be more intentional with my younger children, because how quickly these homeschooling days will pass!
And because I’ve been going through old photos…
(third trimester, getting my shirt tucked in so I can turn a cartwheel…oh, to be 22 again!!!)
The next two babies that I will be writing letters of recommendation for… These two are still just as cute and sweet (most of the time), only a lot bigger.