I am not sure when it happened, but my little girls are are looking big. Today Beatrix told me to say, “Where’s my little Bea-Ose?” And when I asked, she answered, “She’s all grown up!”
Of course she’s not, but If telling herself that helps her remember to use the potty, then that’s great. I know that she’s still my little B-Rose. The one who cries for me to hold her constantly because she claims that she’s not allowed to “touch ground.”
One of my goals this Lent is to become more deliberate with the time that I spend on my computer, hardly a unique goal. While I am not one to sit in front of my computer for long as I have a desktop tucked into a corner, and no portable means for getting online, those moments taken to quickly check my email or look something up turn into little interruptions throughout the day. One of the things that keeps me checking is my love to hear from all of you, hence my decision to turn off comments. I realized quickly though that cutting this form of communication off is not the answer that I am looking for, especially because it feels like cutting you off in a misplaced effort to gain some self control. I simply have to start turning my computer off for most of the day and adhering to set computer times. I am keeping a little pad of paper next to my keyboard to make notes of things that I might want to look up throughout the day so that I won’t forget them, and then at my set “computer time” I can take care of things then, and also check in with all of you. I think that sitting down to read comments and emails at set times, maybe twice each day, will help me to do a better job when you have questions for me as well. So often, I quickly check in only to have to keep moving, tending to my day, without having a chance to reply to questions. I’ve learned that if I don’t take care of something immediately, it gets lost in the mess that is my mind. So thank you for bearing with me this past week. Comments will remain on from now on. I think I have a handle on things now, or at least I am pretending to.