Almost One

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A year ago today, I had my pre-op appointment in preparation for Mabel’s birth the following day. I also needed to make a big grocery run, wanting to be sure my family had everything they needed while I was in the hospital. It being my first hospital birth in almost sixteen years, my younger children were a little concerned over the fact that I would be leaving for this baby’s birth. I was too, as Mabel’s birth would be my first major surgery. While I ran my errands, Jonny drove to the train station with all the kids to pick up his sister, Rachel, who came to help out that first week.

Squeezed into the day, I also had plans to meet with a stranger, a young woman named Molly who had messaged me only days before. She was a friend of Sarah’s who moved away a couple years before she died, hadn’t been able to attend her funeral, and just wanted to connect with another of Sarah’s friends. She needed to hear all that happened, to talk through it, and maybe find some closure. I came close to telling her that I couldn’t meet her at all because the one day she had free happened to be that busy Sunday before Mabel’s birth. Between the timing and my introverted nature, it seemed like a little too much to ask of myself. But something nudged me to meet her. We met at my church, where she was attending while in town. Almost immediately, I felt completely comfortable with her and during the hour we had, we talked and cried together. Before I left, she asked if she could pray over me, as in lay hands on me and pray. She asked, “Would that make you uncomfortable?” And I said, “Yes, but do it anyway.” She covered me in the most beautiful heartfelt prayers naming my specific fears about the surgery and asking for peace. I completely surrendered myself to the moment, and to her prayers. Then it was time for us to part ways. I walked outside and to my car, feeling warm and happy. I had that strange sort of floating sensation that you feel sometimes after something special happens. Sarah felt so close while I was talking with Molly, and even later as I was filling my cart. I thought that of all the weekends that Molly might have needed to visit my town, it was a little crazy that it happened to be the one before my c-section. It hit me that it felt like Sarah was praying for me with her friend. I think she was. There was nothing coincidental about that hour spent crying and hugging a stranger. I pushed my cart through Costco, tears streaming down my smiling face.

Here I sit, one year later, crying fresh tears over what happened the day before Mabel was born. I hope not to cry tomorrow! But when you’re quite near turning forty and your baby is turning one, it’s hard not to. Everything feels so fragile and fleeting and beautiful. I’ve been quite busy getting things together for this first birthday. Mabel has a few special bought gifts, and some handmades too. I sewed her a dress and a crown, and plan to make her a simple quilt too. The last three babies received quilts on their first birthdays (If I’m remembering right) but hers will be a bit late. I did sew her a last minute little felt doll and pouch necklace. And then I gave it to her early, because why wait? She’s pleased with it. 🙂

Despite all the thought I have put into Mabel’s birthday, it will be a simple celebration. Jonny’s mother is visiting with a friend, and they will be with us, so that’s special. We’ll have fruit and whipped cream and a honey cake for lunch (I’ll share the recipe soon. It’s from a friend of mine.) Then there will be gifts after which she’ll likely have a nap. By the time she wakes up it will be time to get dinner made and start thinking about afternoon sports. Time to get Keats and Gabe to baseball, and Seth and the girls to golf. Mabel doesn’t have any favorite foods yet that we can tell, so I’m not sure what we’ll actually have for dinner. I guess I better come up with a plan.

Almost one…Hasn’t the year flown?

a little garden

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With the exception of putting a few herbs, flowers, and berry bushes in the ground, I’m not really gardening this year. Some years something has to give, and I am too busy to mourn over it. Larkspur, on the other hand, couldn’t accept a year without a garden, so she turned over the soil in a tiny plot on the hillside, fenced it from the chickens, and planted radishes, peas, zinnias, and cucumbers. A pot got dragged over in which she placed a single tomato plant. Then the tiniest of beds got tacked onto the side, and now there’s a row of lettuce. It’s a sweet little spot, with a bit of a Roxaboxen feel to it. It’s making Larkspur happy, and I’m glad she insisted on it.

Last weekend was the big annual children’s market at our farmer’s market. Larkspur and Beatrix plan and make for it all year long. It’s a very. big. deal. Trouble sleeping the night before because of all the excitement. Awake at the crack of dawn. Butterflies in their stomachs on our way there. Then all the setting up their things and sharing with their friends and the other children who are participating. It’s such a wonderful opportunity for them all. My girls had a successful day, and I am so pleased with how everything turned out. It made the frantic last minute preparations of the day before worth it. Exhausting, but definitely worth it.

I’ve been slowly preparing for Mabel’s first birthday that is fast approaching. I dyed some wool felt with avocado stones and skins to get my favorite pink and I’m working a little every night to sew her a birthday crown from it. (Inspiration for the “M” I stitched in it came from this book.) I finished a little knitted tunic, also dyed with avocado stones, and I hope to sew at the very least a birthday dress in the coming week, though in a world full of endless crafting hours, I would sew a quilt as well. Maybe I’ll find time for a simple one.

Mabel is walking now! It happened suddenly, as it always does. Those first tentative steps while we all shout to each other to watch, and then before we know it, she’s walking most of the time. While she’s starting to say more, the main word that we can make out is, “Yeah.” She is my first child to say, “Yes” before “No,” and it certainly fits her happy little personality. You can ask her most any question, and she will tell you, “Yeah!” My favorite is when she spots me walking into a room and she starts pointing at me, bobbing up and down, saying, “Yeah, yeah!” She’s the sweetest baby girl and makes friends everywhere we go. It may be too soon to tell, but I’m calling this one an extrovert!

p.s. Thank you for all the orders last week! Most orders have already shipped out, and I will get the last few (with the exception of the sticker pre-orders) out tomorrow. I ordered enough sets of my flower stickers to be able to keep the pre-order listing up, and hope to have them ready to ship in about ten days.

p.p.s. I followed Alicia’s tutorial to make Mabel’s hair barrette.