We had the loveliest time on the beach earlier this week. We follow the tide, aiming to go when it’s at its lowest, which made for an end of the day trip. A high in the 50s seemed like it would be warm enough, but between the wind and the setting sun, we must have worn a record number (for us) of my hand knits to stay comfortably warm. Of course, Beatrix went barefoot, which she ended up regretting.
I haven’t been active enough this winter, which is typical for me (I hate the cold and I’ve been extra cold), but I’m trying to get back in the habit of regular outdoor walks. The cusp of spring is always so full of promise, it’s easy to believe that there is so much goodness waiting right around the corner. Those bulbs I planted with friends last fall are propelling me out the door every day, excited to see what will bloom next. I’m still battling health related issues, and I have had pretty low energy and motivation these past couple of months. Of course that could be both a cause and a side effect of not being active enough. So I’m back at the drawing board, coming up with a new plan to try and feel better. My Hashimoto’s antibodies are almost gone, but I’m dealing with hormonal issues now (estrogen dominance/low progesterone) and of course that affects my thyroid too. It’s exhausting being so exhausted. Ha! But I’m chugging along and determined to fix this mess and feel better. It’s one foot in front of the other right now. And when I am able, one stitch at a time. Larkspur’s birthday is coming up next week, so I’m spending more time with my sewing machine this week than with my knitting, hoping to have a birthday dress ready. Actually, I can say pretty confidently that I will have the dress ready, because Larkspur expects me to, and it makes me happy to make her happy. I got a head start over the weekend, and I try to do a little each day. And for me, that is progress-big picture progress. Learning to slow down and just do a little each day. This is my motto for so many things now. Sometimes I struggle with it, but it’s getting easier.
The one good thing about having low energy is that I am finding it easier to do those things that I know I need to, but in the past were more difficult because I just wanted to go, go, go. I spend a bit of time reading my Bible, thinking and praying every morning. I am remembering to drink more water. I am making myself go to bed earlier. And now that I’ve seen my most recent bloodwork results, and know what needs fixing, I think I will start feeling better soon. But I don’t think I’ll go back to my old habits, rushing around, staying up too late, forgetting to drink water, etc. I think the downtime I’ve experienced over the past couple of years has been a necessary thing, ultimately for my own good.
It’s supposed to rain later today, so if I’m going to get a walk in, I better get out there now!
p.s. Here are links to most of the knits in this post: Mabel’s new Silverfox bonnet, Beatrix’s heart hat and pink cardigan, My Hackberry hat, scarf, and mitts, Job’s orange sweater, Larkspur’s hat, and Jonny’s hat (it has holes in it and I need to knit him a new one!)