The other day Jonny and I were talking about our memories of our children and the fact that no matter how many photos or little video clips we take, we don’t remember what they were really like as babies. I may recall that she cried at the glance of a stranger, or that he preferred to sleep next to me, but I won’t really remember the feel of his little body pressed against my chest in the night. There’s nothing to do but immerse myself in each baby, to remind myself to be thankful for each moment. Someday when mine are grown I may hold another, on reflex I may bend my neck to smell his head, but it won’t be the same, it won’t be my baby. With our last few babies that reality has become more clear especially as the memories of our older children’s babyhoods slip from our minds. (Excuse me while I wipe my eyes and loudly blow my nose. If you’re doing the same, I apologize.)
This little blue striped sweater may be the most sentimental thing I have ever knit. The cashmere yarn was spun especially for Silas by my dear friend Elizabeth. She intended for it to be knit up into a Baby Surprise Jacket. I spent the last month of my pregnancy with him knitting it, finishing it up in the first week or so after he was born.
Baby Surprise Jackets are known to be lacking in the sleeve length department. Wanting to stretch the usefulness of what is now Job’s jacket, I added ribbed cuffs and replaced the toggles with regular buttons that will be more comfortable for him. Right now with the cuffs rolled, it fits him like a long jacket. Next fall he should be able wear it again with the cuffs unrolled. No, I can’t keep Job a baby, but I can make this sweater last a little longer.
**To add the cuffs: Using needles one to two sizes smaller than those used for the sweater pick up 35 stitches around the end of each sleeve. For the first round K2, P1, P2tog. (28 stitches remain) For the remaining rounds K2 P2 until you reach the desired length. Bind off loosely in pattern.